i'm always closing myself up. my feeling and everything. but sometimes i will still say a little here and there so that my heart wun get internal injuries.

but somehow i feel that i have been closing myself too much lately. phyiscally and mentally. and closing myself into a space for too long make me turn into someone that i dun wanna be.

get it? like how i feel? how i talk? i tot i was always good with words. but something happen lately make me feel like i talk without a brain. like where did my brain go. in the past i can control myself very well, i dun say something that is hurtful, but nowadays my mind went wrong and everything i said can hurt.

something's wrong. i'm wondering. like i'm living in another world for too long that i have lost myself. like i have forgotten how to management myself.

where did i go?