Happy Birthday Ong Bing.

wish u all the best in everything u do
always be happy!

and pls rmb u are 9 days younger than me.
dun keep hitting me like u are 9 years older than me.

and thanks for all the happiness.
all the best
and we love u.

My 1st cake. bot by my sister and cousin. haha.

hahaha...

my 22nd birthday!

i only have 2 wishes this year.

i hope that i'm always happy, and please more money. maybe a toto or what. hahaha. night!

love!

i only manage to upload 2 photos. because, i am lazy to edit and i totally look like shit. lol.

the sea is the best. beautiful.

my cousin, me and my mom.
the only photo that i think could be post.
the rest like shit.

oh ya. and i updated the link section.
cos everybody have been changing links that i don't know what is what.
which is which
whose is whose.
haha.

night!

i just reached home. I'm back from my 3 days Redang trip.

i plan to update photos when i came back. but after looking at the photos, i think they are just too ugly to be put online. haha. i've been gaining weight like nobody's business. -.-

well. Redang has nothing much but just relax, sun and sea. and the travelling time is super long, so i really recommend u guys to go by plane. i went there by the very long way, 9 hours of bus and 2 hours of boat. isn't that stupid? i almost die in the 2 hours boat. cos the boat was really very dirty, they have insects everywhere, i'm not scared of insects but they made my whole body itch. -.-

oh and the sun!! the sun is awfully big! i actually put on 3 different types of sun blocks whenever i go out to the sea. haha. i know that was insane but i really dun wanna be tanned. but in the end i still turn abit darker and my skin is peeling off now. 

i almost gave up my snorkeling. because 1st experience wasn't good. i jumped of the boat and choked myself with 2 mouth full of sea water. the sea water is not like the singapore one. the redang one taste like 10 tsp of salt. =.= i was shock with the taste that i almost forgot how to swim and couldn't balance myself. so i went up the boat after 15 mins. but the 2nd and the 3rd time was fun. i wanted to take photo of myself in the water but i cousin forgot to bring the underwater camera out. >.< so sad.

the 3rd snorkeling was in the big sea. and i almost fell down while getting down so everybody swim off while i find another way to go down without jumping. so by the time i when down they were all far far in front. and i was swimming alone. it was quite scary. i don't even dare to look down cos i was so  scared that i will see fish bigger than myself. haha. we swam like 2 hours? i don't know really know the time, but i feel 2 hours. lol. we gathered at 2.30pm and left the sea at 4.30pm. so 2hours. hahaha.

and just now, at the custom(whatever it shld be spelled), i was hold back by the officer because they see red in my head when i walk pass the fever scanner (i duno what is it called). and when i reach home i think i got abit fever cos i really feel like floating and feel the heat in every part of my body.

overall it's a "so so" trip. the hotel food sucks. the travelling sucks too. the sea and the snorkeling is the best. if u want to go, remember to take the plane. lol.
if i remember i will upload the photos. haha. night

it has been quite a long while since i last read a blog post that would made me cry.

hmm. bing's grandfather was admitted to the hospital on monday. and pass away last thursday. we all felt very sorry for her, we all knew she loved him very much and had never stop loving him. we were at the funeral last saturday and bing was showing us her grandfather's photo and told us some of their memories, i controlled my tears, as i know i couldn't make her feel even worse. 

when someone u love become a memory, the memory becomes treasure.

bing's grandfather, please look over her from above. and thank you for loving her so much. may you rest in peace.

a song for u, my dearest bing....

Luther Vandross - Dance With My Father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love, to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me(yeah, yeah)
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night, when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal
One final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I'd pray for her even more than me
I'd pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she' s dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

nothing goes right at the moment

and

i don't feel good.

i feel myself going crazy.....

i'm always closing myself up. my feeling and everything. but sometimes i will still say a little here and there so that my heart wun get internal injuries.

but somehow i feel that i have been closing myself too much lately. phyiscally and mentally. and closing myself into a space for too long make me turn into someone that i dun wanna be.

get it? like how i feel? how i talk? i tot i was always good with words. but something happen lately make me feel like i talk without a brain. like where did my brain go. in the past i can control myself very well, i dun say something that is hurtful, but nowadays my mind went wrong and everything i said can hurt.

something's wrong. i'm wondering. like i'm living in another world for too long that i have lost myself. like i have forgotten how to management myself.

where did i go?

now you can whiten yourself by drinking.

anyone wanna try?? ha.
limited edition siaz... -.-

finally i rmb to blog. lol. ^^.

i bot a new phone last week.
i love the phone.
it's the phone that went out of stock then came back.
i didn't expect it to be so expensive.
but since my old nokia phone is dying,
so i just have to buy it. lol.

that's my new phone.
i'm waiting for heng's stitch. >.<

i use like the whole week to figure out how to take nice photos with my new phone.
it's weird. i need to turn it up side down just like my old phone, that way i wun see my double chin. haha..

for dinner.. hehe.
he say i look weird with the lash thingy.
-.- too bad, i love it.